One Day At A Time - Corey Smith

Me ... "One Day At A Time" ... That's all I can do right now. Putting the past where it belongs! it's hard. Very! Not sure why. Jerry's been ... gone ... dead ... since Oct. 17th of 2009. Why didn't it get to me then like it does now? "Livin' one day at a time ... tryin' to drink you off my mine ... but I'm fallin' apart ... one day at at time." "Love is cruel." Not so much ... :) I loved Peek! Just ... oh I don't even know now. We were destructive as a team! ... to each other! His friends ... my friends ... the music ... our daughters... the memories hurt ... they just do! So ... complicated and yet not. DRUGS! Alcohol and drugs! I don't wanna sound like a D.A.R.E officer ... but yeah ... looking back it was the lifestyle ... it was us ... the band ... and the life of ... sad that it ended a marriage that was supposed to last forever! June 25, 1999 was Jerry's 40th birthday ... I had arranged for SubVooDoo ... his band to open up for StuckMojo in Macon, GA @ Liz Reeds... an awesome bar that is ... gone ... dead too... now. Alan Frank from Macon ran it ... great guy! I miss him ... and I hear he is ... "in trouble ... ill" too now ... but they were to open up for SM and I had got a birthday cake with SubVooDoo pic on it ... took it in the bathroom where he was cleaning up to go play ... don't ask ... lol ... again drugs and alcohol and it was 1999.

I showed him the birthday cake and he said "get that f'ing cake out of here ... I don't have time ... I am trying to get ready to go play." I was crushed! I said "yeah a f'ing job that I booked for you for your birthday ... the band guys were thrilled to get to open for SM ... but to Jerry ... again ... I was "in the way" ... :( I loved him so much. I didn't always show it but I did ... and we had two beautiful girls together ...

My oldest daughter Laura was his heart from day 1. I will never forget ... he came into recovery where I was and said "we got us a little girl and she is beautiful" ... all I could come out with was "you'd damn well better enjoy her cause you are NEVER getting another one" LOL ... it was 1986 ... Dec. I had lost my daddy who was my heart ... in June and I was in HORRIBLE pain!

From that day forward ... Laura was his life! Laura and the music ... and I came .. somewhere after ... but it was ok cause I loved the music and I loved Lauralee with everything in me! She's was a brand new babygirl! A precious gift from God that I wished so badly my dad had of lived to be around! He loved kids!